the inevitable which came early

something is really manoeuvering in my family. at least, from my point of view.

my dad is showing states of ageing already. he's not as active and needed a lot more rest. in the past, he seemed to have unlimited amount of energy and does work way into the midnight. now, its 1048 and he's deep into sleep right now. probably had no energy to ask where had i been as i was not at home. i went to bbq and told my mum only. he's turned rather passive these weeks. i don't know why and felt strange.

my mum's way of taking care of me had changed to. she gave a lot less of instructions before she went work as to which housework to do and what to do and what she expects. i felt really weird. in the past, she would give a lot of instructions each day when she left for work on paper. she has given me much more freedom(and encouraged me to go out).

in conclusion, both mum and dad had been different to me lately.

its totally not the same last year. its totally different. i feel like i'm viewed as a person advanced into teenager's life, which probably i am just that i'm not realising it. haha. i thought this will happen when i get into NS or whatever. i just thought it wouldn't happen now or in the near future. and i don't know why its happening now. which means i have to grow up real quick. its not long before i will face situations which involve crictial decision making at this pace. whether i will be subjected to negative peer pressure, negative influence or even self-responsibility. i seriously need wisdom. a wrong decision which affect myself could upset my family.

man, i will have to grow up soon and probably outgrow certain things soon. bad habits, stumbling blocks, and obvious no-no things....etc.

BE A MAN, HG