hey. haha. have been watching videos on youtube recently. lol. dun get me wrong, its not those taiwan drama series nor some latest movies. its some graduation videos done by other graduated sec4 classes. they make me nostalgic. haha. man, when i see the smiles upon those familiar faces and the sentences they wrote, its like as if they're gonna be seperated forever. especially the sec4md graduation video. well, they had mr gan too. well, our turn is so near.

i'm not really sure my period in cchms was as happy, joyous as them. coz already i can quit my cca with no regrets. well, in this aspect, i really admire those who enjoy their cca and can boast how blossomed their ties they share. i do not mean that my cca, everyone is like that. well i just feel non existant there. that's all. perhaps everyone is the same except me. also, i think its just because of my pride that i've joined this cca, without knowing that without the passion for it can kill. that's the biggest mistake i guess. should have moved out while i could. its also because of pride that i stayed. sad man, its like 3 years worth of cca wasted. when people ask me why i play soccer more than i play the game of my cca, i couldn't answer them. i don't know why it has led to this. maybe because of my attitude.

lower sec hasn't been cherished at all. my fault still.

hhahaha. i don't mean to be that nostalgic here. but can't help it.