SHIOK SIXTEEN

celebration is over now. haha. i still will accept belated gifts though. time for reflection bah. haha.

16 years have passed. human memory forms at 4(if you can remember anything before, good for you). which practically 12 years of living. teenhood starts at 12. so its 4 years of learning to live independently, and still learning. haha. man, i guess 15,16, 18 and 21 are the highlights of teen years la. haha.

honestly, i've been through lots of ups and downs. i'm not sure which share is bigger, but i kinda like the way how i am doing now. i am not establishing myself in the area of studying, neither do i profess in any kind of sport(it could have been tennis yea). i don't really excel in playing in a instrument, neither do i say i have loads of wisdom. i sometimes wonder where on earth my life is actually going to. there's so many paths to take and quite a lot of times i chose everything except the right stuff for me. like cca, basketball. many of ppl out there know my 'story'. its not my fault that i tend to take in disadvantages i dare say. now that i'm stuck in it. should have left since sec1. had i thought it through then, i would not have gone through so much inconvenience.

looking at people around me. i can safely say they are all achieving things and each are shaping up very distinctively. people are getting outstanding in different aspects of life. those who can study are doing it very well, those who can play sports are also doing very well.. etc. when i look into the mirror, i often asked who am i. jack of all trades, master of none. i guess i gotta really do something.

i tried swimming. gold award at p4. not a bad start. yet dropped it for some forgotten lame reasons.

i tried piano. no avail.

i tried tennis, 2nd choice single at p4. frog leaped ahead of seniors. forced to drop after disband for no apparent reason.

i tried basketball. wished i didn't at all.

i tried acting @ mediacorp. grew tired of it even though pay was super attractive. wasted. lol.

i tried scouting. no thanks. camp in 2004 scared me off.

i even tried gaming. lost the very first competition.

whatever the reason is, whether is pride or lack of perseverance, i do want to put these things behind. anyway, its been donkey years. new year, new opportunities, a new day.